Sunday 15 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
Another nothing day.
Tried to telephone home, got Mum and Ad, but I think I may have left them with a very depressed image of me…not entirely untrue. Couldn’t get Deb, perhaps I was dialing the wrong number. Instead I called Karen, but she was out, so I spoke with Matt – this was a much better conversation. I hope Deb isn’t too upset. I asked Karen, via Matt, to ring Deb to tell her I had tried to call.
Had lunch at the Boathouse – not bad really, and cheap.
I want to start saving some money. Emma’s really is a piss-hole, but who cares? Tomorrow I begin some work, but I don’t quite know what.
I like not having a beard.
Monday 16 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
My work begins. Spent most of the bloody day in front of a computer doing data entry.
Lunch at the Goose, bought for me by Jim.
Not a bad day – blue sky, but cold and quite windy.
I am to begin work on a strategy for the long-lining. I hope I am up to it.
I had a great evening – just me, Phil and Jim at the Goose. Not over-drinking, but having a pleasant number of beers and at last finding things to talk about.
Jim took the bull by the horns and went to visit KSJ to ask permission for passage to Montevideo…then he went and told Jacko, who I don’t think was too pleased having previously said no.
Beautiful sky at night – the stars were spectacular.
Tuesday 17 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
A day at FIPASS (the floating port facility left over from the war) – ok – beautiful day. Sky blue – no wind. Things are beginning to happen really quickly now. I am much happier than I was the other day.
Phoned Deb and got through, it was lovely to speak to her – she sounded very remote (not distance-wise, but emotionally). She is working very hard for her exams in June – I hope she does well. Her voice was tired and dopey.
Evening was a booze up in the Globe. It was very interesting all about PDA *(my employers) and Peter Derham in particular.
Wednesday 18 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
First full day at FIPASS – also a letters day, but it was puny – one TLS, that’s it! what a contrast to yesterday weather-wise. Terrible wind and rain. Unbearable.
I am back at Emma’s now and am so sad for the kids here. No love, no attention. Their mother is having a breakdown I think, she can’t cope with their crying and only compounds the problem by screaming ‘shut up!’ at them. It is no wonder that they are so friendly with the guests – they need the company. I am concerned; I don’t think that she’s violent yet, but it is just a matter of time. The war is over now – at last.
On reading this last passage again in 2016, with a family of my own, I am curious about my view of the situation at Emma’s Guest House. I know now how hard it can be bringing up children. I think I saw the world through a young man’s eyes and my values and judgments were different. I wonder what I would have thought of the situation if I were the me of now, and whether I would have tried to help.
Thursday 19 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
Out at FIPASS again for the morning. Drin and Liz also went out. The storm has died down and it is a fairly calm, but overcast day.
Looking forward to the May Ball tomorrow, but what costume shall the poor ‘boy’ wear (corruption of and reference to a Japan cover of a Velvet Underground song).
FIPASS is like a moon base, quite claustrophobic and synthetic – the strip lights etc.
We moved more of the office over and now the computers are at FIPASS. I will work from there from now.
Went to the Desire for a booze up down at FIPASS – it was a resounding success. I was plastered and puked at Emma’s (in the sink). Whart a great evening – an excess of McEwans. Jim and John and Phil and Steve and Peter and Alistair were there.
Friday 20 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
Ball night. Sean found an egret and brought it into the new office.
Mega piss up at the ball. Dear oh dear.
Globe – Goose – Ball.
Whiskey coat! ‘just going for a coat’.
May Queen – Melanie came third. I was forced into a dance with Miranda.
Very very pissed.
Post – letters from Charlie and Beth – I was very chuffed to hear from them. Also from Granny who seems to be a little better, from Karen too.
Jim fell over!
Saturday 21 May 1988, Port Stanley, Emma’s Guest House
Deb has sent me a fun pack. There was a packet of cartridges, some newspapers, a Private Eye and some crisps – also a rose – one which I gave her. Here are some petals
Deb sent this before, but I’ve only just gotten round to sticking it in. I miss her terribly. I want to be at home. (This musician, Martin Stephenson, was to play a significant part in my adventure at a later point)
The day was beautiful and sunny. Tonight is the second ball preceded by the KSJ dinner.